A Brand New Day

"We lead our lives like water flowing down a hill, going more or less in one direction until we splash into something that forces us to find a new course." Memoirs of a Geisha

Life is strange sometimes, and mine never seems to turn out "right". It has been more than a year since I left college. Back then I was in a completely different place. I was living life the way I thought it should be lived. The adjustment from living on my own, around all of my friends to living at home with my crazy unstable family, and being utterly friendless threw me. I am not going to lie about that. I have spent the past year in total turmoil, and depression. I fought the path that my life had taken and ended up fighting with everyone around me. I was very unhappy.

I don't know why it is that I am suddenly feeling very at peace with myself and my surroundings. I still am friendless. But now I feel like I am swimming with the current instead of against it. It is not like my life has dramatically improved or that my financial downfall has been resolved. It's just that I don't feel unhappy. I'm still not happy in Pella, but maybe I am a little less unhappy with my life. Perhaps it is acceptance, but I kinda feel like I am alive again.

"Ya-hey' he called out to the movement of the unseen. A summer before, Uncle Moses listened to his nephew John-John, talking a story. John-John was back from college and told Moses that 99 percent of matter in the universe is invisible to the human eye. Ever since Moses made sure to greet what he could not see." Lone Ranger and Tonto Fist Fight in Heaven.